In March 2008, my wife lost her job. The company’s
American owners had decided to sell their property in
California, U.S.A. Hence, they also had to close their
local office in the Philippines where she had been working
for 7 ½ very good and happy years. It was a great
loss for her because she had a very good relationship
with the owners and colleagues, aside from the excellent
pay she was receiving.
Indeed, when I received the email from the company owners
that morning, I felt like I had been struck down on
the floor and laid flat. My tears flowed freely and
in the silence in my office, I uttered my “Yes”
to the fact that very soon I wouldn’t be earning
any centavo to help my husband with our daily needs.
I felt that Jesus was asking me to love Him in the face
of whatever trial and difficulty we would be encountering.
It was a journey of faith and at the same time it was
a real struggle for me because my daughter was graduating
from high school that year and would be entering college
a few months after. I was afraid. Again and again I
repeated my “Yes” to Jesus in the office
until I experienced peace within me. Thus, I was able
to work smoothly until the end of the day, able to smile
at anyone I met.
That night, we gathered our children together and broke
the news. In particular, we told them God had a new
plan for the family. We might not have understood why
it should happen when the needs of the family are growing
but we were sure of one thing, God would not abandon
us. We wanted to see how they would react in this situation.
I listened to what each one had to say and their suggestions
on how they could help the family cope with our new
financial needs. One suggested less T.V. time so we
won’t pay high electricity bills. Another suggested
no more going to malls, more cuts in our budgets, etc.
But what our youngest child asked really twisted my
heart. “Can we still eat ice cream?” he
asked. Right away, I reassured him that at least every
Sunday after church, they would get one cone of ice
cream each from a local vendor near the church. And
until today, we have kept this promise.
We saw how the children tried to welcome their dad happily
and what he would bring home for them each day. Slowly,
complaints diminished when they were able to adjust
to our new situation and were happy with what we could
give them day by day. God’s generosity is beyond
imagination! He opened new doors so that His providence
could arrive on time. When my brother in-law, Ed’s
younger brother, heard the news, he immediately assured
us that he and his wife would shoulder the entire college
expenses of our daughter with the course of her choice.
One of my sisters also pledged to look after her monthly
allowance. Instead, meeting the need for her books,
school supplies and other requirements has become manageable
for us. Now, she is a senior in college and doing her
part to reciprocate all the love she has received.
The ability to recognize and love Jesus Forsaken in
different moments in our life has strengthened our love
and we find a renewed energy to start again every time
we fall, or a trial comes.